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1/21/08 04:58 am - tiredy tired tired

and just a little high....

my little girl is out of town and i  miss her so. i'm tired and feelin a bit lonely but i feel great when i think about her, she is my sunshine!

i didn't mean to fall in love again, in fact if you would have asked me before she and i started dating i would have told you that i didn't want it, that i was tired of love. i'm so glad my foolish nature didn't win over! thank the universe that i was able to be open for a new relationship, for a love that is real this time!

i am stronger and more motivated than i have been in years, life feels real for once! my life is made better through her existence. i am reconnected to myself and my purpose and i am more happy than i can remember being in the past!

dear Lil Flincher, you are my miracle and mommy loves you! i can't wait to be with you again!

see you soon!

1/28/06 05:01 am - dx


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3/16/05 08:44 pm - wow

This is really the longest period that I've been clean and sober since 1995! wow. and to still come out of it as brilliant as I am. man they should give me the Nobel prize just because i exist. that doesn't sound arrogant does it?

3/16/05 05:31 pm - pretty boy

i believe that i saw the prettiest boy i have ever seen, as i rode the bus today. he looked as though he were of Indian descent. as such was the case he had beautifully clear and smooth skin, which was nearly the same color as milk chocolate and just as creamy as well. he was wearing mascara and as he glanced at me, he winked, revealing a very soft and almost powdery lavender eye liner with just a hint of shadow underneath. it was bold and complemented his skin tone very well. he was wonderful to look upon....

3/2/05 09:52 pm - Mysterious interventions into nothingness

I realized as I laughed earlier that sometimes my laugh makes me sound like a chimpanzee.


I was at a friends house last night and we split and finished an entire wine bottle of mushroom tea. It was wonderful. We watched the non linear, non narrative driven film Baraka, if you haven't seen it, you should. It was beautiful. Afterward as I sat in the livingroom by myself and contemplated my hands, I was trying to figure out what I was supposed to do but it was eluding me. I was however, in my attempt, able to distill all of existence into everything and nothing, I knew nothing and almost everything. The one thing that kept slipping by was why I couldn't reconcile myself with the whole, as I seemed to remain separate, while in all actuality I was a part of it all the time.

Experiencing all at once is more exhausting than I imagined it would be. But ultimately I'm glad to have been there and more glad to have been able to take the initiative to separate consciousness at the time. at this time in my life I don't think it would be a good thing to place myself there permanently.

ciao

2/9/05 11:28 am - Iam going to scream

I am going to SscREAMMMM!!!!

and for those of you who've never seen me when my meds start losing their effec dont be surprised if it results in splitting this god forsaken muck ball of a planet in two and scatters it's poor excuse for sentient life!!!



Day 4--- NO SLEEP-- AND YES I'M TRYING TO SLEEP BUT I'M A GOD DAMNED INSOMNIAC WHO WAS KNOCKED OUT OF MY CYCLE BY A FRIEND WHO JUST HAD TO CHOOSE ME AS THE ONE SHE JUST NEEDED TO TALK TO AT THAT MOMENT....DONT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE HER TO DEATH BUT THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPEN TO BE THE PERFECT CATALYST TO KICK ME INTO INSOMNIA MODE



AND I JUST END UP GOING INSAAAAAAMNNMNOMFDAGDS0I[ F q -!

the end.

2/8/05 04:48 am - why do I bother? and desperately needing hair help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't you hate it when you find yourself up in the middle of the night, tired but wired because you are a classic insomniac that likes the speech patterns of run on sentences and you realize that you no longer can recogize the difference between correct and miss spelled words all the while being pulled away by some weird section of your brain to watch the dvd of starsky and hutch that just so happens to be playing in your bedroom which happens to be empty except for my tv watching cat whos probably really sleeping which is what I should be doing instead of trying to find good info on doctoral programs involving gender studies and human sexuality.!? ah fuck the punctuation

Querry!!-- is anyone aware of a good stylist in San Francisco that is skilled in the art of curly hair? You straight haired people have it so easy... Most hair people are really retarded when it comes to curls... you just don't know, If you've never had natural curls then its 95% likely that you're retarded when dealing with natural curls. and don't say but, but, but I've done perms---doesn't count, dollface. permed hair is a different texture than natural curls alltogether. blah blah blah

so yeah do you know a hair stylist qualified to cut and shape a head of beautiful curls?
who also is used to dealing with transexuals, preferrably.

1/25/05 04:11 am - its early...im sleepy

Hmm It's 4:11 AM, I just got done having to walk home from the tenderloin, where I was visiting with a friend, and instead of cooming in the house and taking my tired (but cute!) little but to bed, here I am on the computer for absolutely no reason... and I have not a clue why.... night, night!

1/20/05 10:02 pm - o my god

well what do you know. I figured they would have closed my account by now. Well here's to those of you who might remember me. I've been out of the loop since mid September, right after my volatile bodies show. It's been a long recovery process but I'm once again out and about in the land of the living. Hope alls well with all of you. lov ya

-jodieC

8/21/04 08:07 pm - Sorry, the show is at...

Jon Sims Center for the arts,



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